Not even a full 3 weeks into my new year's plan to concentrate on health and wellness I have failed. I'm talking Epic. Fail. It started when I started craving carbs that didn't come in the form of fruit and veggies. Then I missed wine. Then white fudge covered oreos. You can imagine it went down hill from there for about 3 days. All the progress I made I undid. Oops.
Then, when I decided to get back on track, my respiratory track just failed me. Sneezing and itching coughing and wheezing so bad that I ended up giving myself nebulizer treatments at work. As if that's not annoying enough, I spent an entire week (and wasted a perfectly good weekend!) being so stoned on antihistamines that all I did was sleep. Was it worth it? No. I still managed to break out in a very attractive head-to-toe rash. So I'm sneezy, itchy, scratchy, blotchy, wheezy, grumpy, and sleepy. I'm like a diseased, twilight zone take on the Seven Dwarfs. Not fun. Not attractive.
Went to see my allergist today to say "hey... something's gotta give" and he was baffled by my situation. Now in fairness, it is the NP that works in his office, but still... no one I've asked can figure out how, while taking 4 antihistamines and steroids and weekly allergy shots, it can be humanly possible to have the histamine release necessary to produce a rash. I am a freak of nature. Excellent.
So, like anything else, I'll just adjust everything and do it myself. I'll start weaning off the antihistamines and wake up enough to formulate a new plan. Probably an all natural one. Don't get me wrong, I believe in the power of western pharmaceuticals when they work. When the cost me a fortune every month and just make me tired and don't provide symptom relief... not so much. I think I'm gonna be like my parents and go for the natural approach: quercitin, grapefruit seed extract, elderberry, raw local honey. Might take a couple more days to get over a common cold, but if I'm awake to enjoy my life that's worth it. And it's been suggested that I throw in some accupuncture as well. I will investigate.
After that Operation Wellness can continue. When my lung capacity will support it again, I'll go back to yoga. Then the diet will start to improve as well because let's face it, no one wants balsamic glazed fish and asparagus with cayenne when they are sick and feel awful. You want soup and sprite, neither of which are on the diet. I'll get there...
The next project is to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Back to grad school? Move and start over? (Incidentally, I never wheezed and had asthma problems like this living by the ocean. Just saying...) Am I just sitting in a rut living vicariously through my sister's life and my roommate's life? Am I still here doing the same thing because I'm too scared to go find my own way? The more questions I ask, the more confused I get. I am working on trying to be quiet-minded and listen for the answer from Him.
Hope everyone is having a great start to the new year!
Much love to you,
-Amanda
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