So, at first I was excited about Ice-mageddon 2013. I'll admit it... I thought "snow day!! Three day weekend!" and I was like a kid knowing that school will be out... until I discovered my cable is out and they cannot replace the receiver until Monday or Tuesday. 

I have watched marathons of Sex and the City, about 8 movies, taken naps, cleaned, laundry, played with Abby the Cat, debated briefly going to the store, debated seeing if my neighbors have wine, thought about coloring my hair... relaxing bubble bath...  I am now over it. I'm dreaming of tropical locations and watching every movie I own that is set in a tropical location. Surprisingly, I have a lot of them.. Still stir crazy and bored.

Finally I opened a random section of a book that I read a while ago and something in it spoke to me at this point. The book is called "What Women Fear" by Angie Smith and it discusses the common fears and anxieties women have and how to turn to God to calm your fear. I will admit, I have some anxiety around things: school and how hard it'll be to go back with those two horrible classes simultaneously, work and how it's fine but it's not my passion... what is my passion? I don't know.  That's scary, too. What do I do when school is over? What kind of roles do I look for?  Will I recognize where I'm supposed to go when I see it?
So I came across this story in the book last night. I'm going to quote it here and give the author credit, but not in formal APA format because school is out and this is a blog...like a diary, not a formal paper.  The story is about the fishers of men. They are on a ship with Jesus and a storm rises on the sea.  The men find Jesus sleeping and worried that He was unconcerned with their peril. We do that sometimes during struggle, trials, and tribulations... we wonder if He cares at all about our difficulties.  As the lightening flashes, the men run to Him in desperation and call out to Him there on the hull of the ship that was never in danger.. for He controls the storm. (Angie Smith).

So why do I worry about what is coming? I'm not in control of it anyway. God is and has always been in control of whatever happens in my life. In all our lives. I may not understand the storm or the problems it seems to cause, but it serves a purpose in my life. It will teach me something or make me grow in some way.  Just like the ice storm.  It's frustrating to be stuck inside, but I'm blessed to have heat and warmth and a million happy movies to watch because with cable I would be watching reruns and marathons of reality TV trash.  So the ice annoys me, but it made me stop for a minute and reconnect with my happily-ever-after spirit. A million cheesy movies and a book about faith later, I believe it'll all work out just fine.  God will stop the storm when it's time for Him to... and the ice will melt eventually as well.